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absolutely sleepy, lethargic, senseless and tired right now.

i got 2 birthdays to celebrate later. mongolian buffet at park mall later. phuture on a big big saturday night. my friend booked a room at corptherne hotel too. prospectively exciting and enjoyable night.

yesterday was bowling at kallang leisure mall with my army friends. they can all bowl better than me and the gutter was my best friend that night. i still prefer the bowling alley at east coast park for some reasons. the good thing bout' kallang bowl is that the tv on top will explain how to knock down those pins effectively.

anyway, i hope to have a thicker hairdo..

due to some hard persuasion from my army colleagues, i have just installed warcraft into my laptop. learning the ropes of playing dota. the game is rather straight forward, or rather idiot proof. but, i don't enjoyed it at all. i will probably stick to my football manager game for the time being. i have decided to save up for a playstation 3 for the sake of watching dvds and playing grand theft auto 4, winning eleven, etc..

my friends usually labeled me as 'random'. its true. i'm having a hard time sleeping at night recently as my brain kept me thinking while lying down on my bed. can someone just wake me up at one go? why is it so hard to shirk off some memories that filled you with regrets and angst? the false hopes that i was lead on earlier left a bitter taste in me. everything will soon turn into hatred if those stuffs keep on hogging me.

no one understands.

i changed my lj's skin again. it seems that the skins provided my lj is not really nice as compared to other blog sites.

last wednesday night was spent at butterfactory. to my surprise, one room played a mixture of mambo and hip hop music. sadly, that didn't attract the crowd as compared to the next room that play rnb and hip hop genres. i like to club on wednesday now. the crowd seems to be a mixture of youths that are studying as compared to friday and saturdays one. somehow, i thoroughly enjoyed myself at butter though the queuing up process was forgettable.

paris international buffet on saturday. i liked the abalone and the scallops alot. the price is a lil hefty as compared to sakura buffet. but they say, paris is much more better than the latter. i don't quite enjoy eating oysters as there is a tinge of fishy taste that lingers in my tongue after that. the lemon doesn't seems to make a much difference.

i should make my way to bed now. man u match up at 2 hours later. still contemplating whether to watch it or not. but i guessed the answer is 'no'. i don't wish to get caught for sleeping at work. alright. night!

catholic is my faith. but i will never have the courage to forgive murderers. just like this --> http://www.thestandard.com.hk/news_detail.asp?pp_cat=30&art_id=85132&sid=24636605&con_type=1

mdis gave me a call today. they got my contact number through their site when i was downloading the brochure about mass communication. the school invited me for a talk at their premises but i decline as i'm not ready to take up a course yet.

my playlists are in a big mess. i shouldn't have meddle with my hard drive that led to the disk crash. 1.5 years worth of videos, songs and pictures have been destroyed by my own hands.

cool! i just realized the weekends are nearing. 4 more days. =D

happy gals are a joy. can i attract myself to their happy hearts?

my cousin had a talk with me during my bali trip. she explained to me that i should start planning ahead while doing my national service. in addition, i should start asking myself the jobs that i will be interested in. a good piece of advice will be i should start eliminating the things that doesn't interest me so as to determine my strengths. i always have a passion for history or journalism since young, but i'm not proficient in my language and in this realistic world, its not easy to make a career out of history either.

i'm left with 3 universities choices in singapore. sim, kaplan or mdis. the degrees offered are not promising which left me to regret for not working hard during polytechnics. but, i should try and work harder in future. my dream will be heading abroad to australia or the states. its a great opportunities to be independent and make new friends.

right now, i'm looking at every courses offered and hope a miracle will happen!

i love to travel. bali being my latest destination has spurred me on once again to go overseas. i love the beach and sun at bali though the cuisine and traffic proved otherwise. i thought bali was like 1 hour away from singapore but never did i know its a good 2 hours away. the breeze was amazing probably due to the winter at australia. i'm quite tanned now!

whats next on my list? taipei? i don't think that will happen after all now. probably australia around december? but the expenses will be huge. what about somewhere further like the states where i can take refuge with my cousins?

monday is offically back to work. argh. that sucks. my one week vacation is over. i'm going to stone for the rest of my life. that sucks.

facebooked.
that was in the past.
she has someone in her heart right now!
my blessings are still there
sometimes, i do envy her a lot.

may God bless her! =D

i met my cousins just now for a movie. transformer 2. not a bad movie but i won't say its an excellent movie either. as usual, the sleeping bug struck me for a period of time. ending was okay still.

i'm 22 and something is still missing in my life. deep inside, i know whats the answer but.. sometimes, ups and downs are part and parcel of life.

a vacation is awaiting me next week. shall make the most of it. deactivate my phone for a moment but yet again, who will be in a 'right' mind to look for me. i shall make myself scarce for a short period.

ps: edmund is not feeling emotional. guys, please don't assume! =D

i told myself before that if they successfully found their second half, definitely feel glad for them. though its a hard and painful fact that i will face. it happened once, and soon the events will be repeated again.

compared to the poor victims of hunger and war-torn countries, my sadness is nothing.

i'm home on a saturday again. actually, it feels good to be home on the weekends. i would love to do many other stuffs other than heading down to town or clubbing. i went out with yaozhong and ivan last thursday till 2am. imagine i have to wake up 3 hours to prepare for work and hardly open my eyes in the morning. luckily i took a half-day leave to have a good rest. back to thursday, we had prata around haji lane and bowling for next on our agenda. i got 4 strikes in the row but was 2 points behind the winner. ZZzzzz

friday was on phuture. we opened 3 bottles on ivan's big day. martell*2, johnny walker. i didnt drank alot as i made a promise to myself that i will stay sober. i didn't enjoy at all as my mind was not on phuture at all, rather somehow, everything was focused on sleeping and yawning.

i think i will upload some photos and i drove the tuscani around suntec's carpark for a minute. argh. when can i buy a car?

0600 - reveille & preparation for work
0730 - destination nee soon camp
1000 - morning tea-break
1500 - jogging (if that ever happens on that day)
1730 - knock off
1815 - home sweet home
1900 - nap
2130 - online
1200 - good night

thats how routine my life is at the moment. (monday - thursday)

Lonely I'm Mr Lonely,
I Have Nobody,
For My Own
I'm So Lonely, I'm Mr. Lonely
I Have Nobody,
For My Own
I'm So Lonely

a song by akon. deeply immersed in my mind.

work is fine. its a stoning period for me till november. my office is over-staffed but with fun and chatty colleagues. that sums up my NS life.

ivan's birthday@phuture this friday. table booked? edm will be sitting down all night long and chill with the loud rnb music blasting through the speakers.

my weekends were fine. a discussion on going overseas this december came about. taipei came out in our minds immediately. somehow i like to travel cause it takes my mind off certain things and have a few good days with some of buddies.

probably heading to the US next year. hope it happens.

cold weather. around july? no way!

Tevez: I'll score against Man Utd and shout in Fergie's face!
05.07.09 | tribalfootball.com

Departing Manchester United striker Carlos Tevez has slammed manager Sir Alex Ferguson.

Tevez, who rejected the chance to stay at United even though the club met his £25.5m asking price, told the Mirror: "Ferguson still believes I will be at United next season. He thinks I will return.

"But I know what I want and I know that Ferguson did not respect me as a player. Before Berbatov arrived in Manchester, Ferguson told me, 'You will still be the starting striker, so be cool'. But he lied to me! That is why I know I will not return to United.

"What I want to do next season is score against United. I promise I will not celebrate in front of the United fans but I will shout in Ferguson's face.

"You can be sure of that - and it will be one of the most beautiful things I have done in football."

Tevez is set to be unveiled at Manchester City after turning down the chance to stay at Old Trafford.

edm's assessment: tevez, just shut the hell up and stop publicizing your love for the man u fans. >.<

i'm a past bystander. i will work hard for my future if i'm able to turn back the time. SIM doesn't interests me but thats my only local option right now. study abroad? the top 8 aussie unis interests me lots. so whats my options?

if i'm a superhero, edmund will be a pleasant person. but you don't need to be a superhero to be one. but am i a pleasant guy?

its good to learn how to do everything alone sometimes. well, whatever i do is definitely for a reason, i.e. you won't have to feel lonely and life will be much more carefree. whats a term for that? erm, what about life quarantine or self-therapy?

the heart has it reasons but we cant reason with it?

i took some pictures with ivan's pet dog, cia cia. a shih tzu breed. here's my fav picture.

On this day of your life, Edmund, we believe God wants you to know...
... that you cannot wait anymore.

The moment has finally come. You have no choice. You have to take that step now. Now. Not tomorrow, not in an hour, - Now! If anyone else is reading this, they would be confused. But not you. You know exactly what we mean. Do it. Now.


I think i should delete my past entries and start all over again. haha